Walk With Jesus

Used to think You didn't care,
I, was just a pawn in the game You were playin'
Puttin' walls up everywhere
Never thought You heard a word I was prayin'

I stood in the way
When I needed to run to You
But I was too proud to say

Take away the blindness
Lead me through the dark
Don't let me fall apart
Save me from my bitterness
Show me who I am
Make me who You want me to be
I know I pushed You away
Lookin' for someone to blame, yeah
Now I can see, I've been my own worst enemy

Who was I to sit and judge?
Always pointing my crooked finger
Holding tight onto a grudge
All along I was a chief of sinners

I stood in the way
When I needed to run to You
Lord, I was too proud to say

Take away the blindness
Lead me through the dark
Don't let me fall apart
Save me from my bitterness
Show me who I am
Make me who You want me to be
I know I pushed You away
Lookin' for someone to blame, yeah
Now I can see, I've been my own worst enemy

No You never gave up on me!
No You never gave up on me!
No You never gave up on me!

Take away the blindness
Lead me through the dark
Don't let me fall apart
Save me from my bitterness
Show me who I am
Make me who You want me to be
I know I pushed You away
Lookin' for someone to blame, yeah
Now I can see, I've been my own worst enemy
Oh oh!
Now I can see, I've been my own worst enemy
Oh, oh!
Now I can see, I've been my own worst enemy

No You never gave up on me!
No You never gave up on me!
No You never gave up on me!

As some of you may know, this is a song by the Christian group, Newsboys.  It's not only one of my favorites, I feel like it's a life-saving message for me.  You see I did do this.  I pushed God away more than I realized.  And though this is hard for me to admit, because I'm so ashamed, I did feel like a pawn in God's game.  But instead of running away from God, I should've have been running to God.

I've been saved for many years now, but I don't think I ever truly grew in the Lord.  A few years ago I started reading a devotional book by Sarah Young called "Jesus Calling".  I thank my precious Mother for giving me this book.  I felt like Jesus was actually talking to me, and the more I read, the more time I spent with Him, the closer we became.  Now I have a real relationship with my Father.  We talk every morning as we walk together on "our own little beach".  I'm still not perfect, but I have grown so much closer to my Lord.

I pray that you have a beautiful relationship with God.  There's nothing in this world that will make you happier.